-> i hate everything thats happening.
whatever.

but i feel so sad when i see them cry. especially jasmin. but lucky she's very jian qiang. dont worry la. you all can finish in time de. we lend you the glue if you all want(:

tell me it isnt a wrong choice for us to enter bp.

-> me and xian
we are damn proud of ourselves can! though the arcylic isnt as clear and nice now, but at least it looks presentable.

too presentable already. if you get what i mean :D

im sicked and tired of lying to myself that i could convince mum to heck care ahma and let me transfer to rs.

-> we are all tired.
tired of everything. I WANT SOME LOVE IN MY LIFE!

ok, thats a little irrelevant. but i believe some love in me could make me happier. HaHaHa!

and that 204 could replace 6i

-> we shall just flunk dnt too.

initially went there after school to put the fan in. in the end all the measurements wasnt right, and we couldnt think of a good idea to make it air tight. plus the acrylic was damn ugly because of the chloroform, we dismantle the whole thing.

not that we didnt try to think, or we didnt get help from others. but we are so sorry, we have to redo everything again.



-> went to food junction with xian janice and yongxiang. lols. crapping there. not exactly though, we finally know who stands a higher chance to wooing xian. ha!



-> damn tired today. kept falling asleep. jessica was very scary! ahahas

erjie la! she woke me up in the night and told me six le. i was wondering why jiejie wake up so early use com and why i feel so tired, but i still took my uniform and wanted to go bathe. then i ask erjie why she dont want go change and she told me she not going school, menses cramp. i was like wapiang, i dont want go also. until jiejie told me it was only 12.30.

damn her la.



-> random thought
people seem so nice today. hahas.



-> i hate it when my friends cry.
(i cheer sans up with chiam's joke! haha :D)



-> art was damn fun today. LOLS

mr wong gave me a mike. thats a long story. hahas. and we have our jokes session. even mr wong join in. hahas! so funny.

art and ipw are always times to relax (:

-> dnt almost finish. so cool.
today damn funny. hahas. very slack. mingliang and yeekhang did most of the assembly. i did only the last few pieces. lols. xian did the assembly drawing. ha!

after that went to help qixiang paint their product. he like so cham lor, paint one hour liao still can see the wood. hahas. and the pro paint less than fifteen minutes he call me da jie.

see, im pro sia : D

he's very funny. Lols



-> bloody
i got A for my singing!

wapiang! i couldnt believe it man! i sing nice one ok!

-gleam beam smirk-

:D



-> lit was cool.
i practically copy down the notes only. though i add in the examples and some of my own points. hahas. think mrs lim will be shocked when she marked our paper. so many of us have the same points. LOLS



-> LALALA~
mugging mugging QIWEI START MUGGING FOR MID YEAR!

woo~

-> everytime i feel like blogging this few days, i would type some crap and realise its really too crap, delete the whole thing, seeing that i didnt spend alot time on it. hahas : D

but i think i should really start mugging now that i think i totally screw up the whole english paper one and two.

like i said before. im a damn contradictive person and it proved to be quite true. hahas. my whole essay, every paragraph contradicts each other like siao. nevermind, i think im quite used to this problem. lols. i'll just flunk it.

sad-ed



-> anyone who feels bored or unhappy, find me! i assure you a smile and a hearty laugh after my jokes ( :

two hot and favourite are out.
though quite a few peeps already heard them.

their reactions were a little undescribable. they just went to off the fans and hug each other together to warm themselves. ha!



-> alywin so funny today. he came and pester me to buy his cheapo dont know where get the tamagoji. haha!

so lame lor! and i still believe him that it was 07's care and share. DUHS!




-> i got home damn early today! everyone was so surprised. hahas
mummy was like, "wa! no money liao right? sure is de. if not you wont come home eat lunch de"

i make my pinky promise, i will come home straight after school everyday unless theres school stuff to do, eat lunch at home and only a packet of milo during reccess until term three begins.

QIWEI! RICH PEOPLE ARE HAPPIER THAN POOR PEOPLE! isnt that what you agree in your essay?

thats cool thats cool. new phone on the way : D



-> yeye birthday.
i met my dear friend there. piggy and sharkfinny, prawny and scallopy, lobsty and meey, ducky and fishy. hahas

erjie and jiejie damn xia suay de. i shall post it up some other time. sure can entertain you for that minute or so. qw find it damn hilarious now that she is think she isnt fat anymore. -gleam-

-> backbone condition is stable. today short day. physics test was alright. cause practically everyone cheated. cip was same. next sat going imh do cip too. the bread is so nice. i love jellies and i cursed the person who imposted me.

-> i super duper damn pissed today.
feel like chopping anybody and everybody who stood in my way into 72 pieces and cook curry.

i really dislike 204. ass


they have freaking big nose poking into every single business and abnormally kuku attitude. and seriously, ban flirting in class can! im damn irritated, by the fact that it make the class so not condusive for studying and edison is not there. fine them! asshole. and those who scream or shout in the middle of absolute silence. (xian you shout! ahahas)



-> it seems so ridiculous to me that some people actually doesnt know how the pledge goes. they just recite recite and stop at " language or religious" and couldnt continue.

no matter how much i hate here, i make the effort to remember the words and recite it every morning even though i dont sing the anthem.

and it makes it so unfair for some of us who knew it from top to bottom left to right at the age of four.



-> band officially stops!
woo~

but it resume right after mid year. sad-ed.

the hols practice. apparently ng forgot about our chalet, the band pract is on 29may to 1june. which means we are only going for the last day. not that im complaining, i feel happy. but the four freaking whole day pract is focusing on music for band comp next year.


lucky we arent going jurong bird park perform anymore.
piang. whats wrong with someone being afraid of birds!

though i might laugh at the someone if the someone wasnt me. LOLS!

-> read sieyuan's blog.

and YEAH! HI FIVE!
QIWEI FINISHED ALL HER CHINESE HOMEWORK AS WELL! EVEN THE FIRST OF MARCH DE SHE COMPLETE LE!

ha! QIWEI feel so bloody proud of herself. -smirk-

she did her vocab and summary too!
man! qiwei, i couldnt believe you spend your entire afternoon doing all those crap! what a great and pretty girl you are!

no qiwei, even if its so, dont smile foolishly to yourself. it isnt a compliment.

ITS A FACT :D



-> maths is too difficult for my small brain to work out. i couldnt understand the english comprehension. geog is total greek to me.

SO, im done with most of my work.
LALALAS~



-> i was telling myself yesterday night that i got to start revising now. and i will put in my 100% effort to study greek and spend my entire birthday this year reading the damn textbook like i did last year.

but i realised i couldnt do it.
sad-ed

this year geog test is on the fourth of may. ahahas



-> im starved.
hahas.



-> siying.
i promised i will consider la.

but this is a free and easy society, so no forcing is allow~
HaHaha

why cant me and xian just meet you guys there. it just doesnt make enough sense to me to travel one big round when i have straight bus there.

i do get your point. you want to get us bond and shit.
but isnt twelve o'clock a little too early?! hahas. and theres no point for us going there so reluctantly. further discussion would only lead to more arguement and unhappiness. but since i promise i will consider, i will. but dont be too hopeful. im quite sure i'll still stick to my point at the end of the day.

please dont feel pissed or be pissed, i didnt mean it to happen.

-> sports day finally over.

our performance, ok la, just screw up. LOLS
its OVER, so lets not talk about it.



-> yellow house qiang wor. just that we got second.
hahas.

i pity the girl who collapsed and admire the one who fell at the start but got first in the end.

GREAT SPIRIT! GOOD!



-> samuel vs matthew
its a TIE! hahas :D



-> xiaoling says no wonder the kids like me, i was nice to them. well, they dont annoys me, i'll treat them nice and they'll love me.

its a fair cycle, isnt it?


kenneth was so sweet today
and i promised i will buy him something next week. POLEE promised too!! ahahaas



-> i wonder how kids can cry so easily.
they cry because their friend doesnt let them play with them. DUH! though i believe i was like them when i was young. ahahas

but good thing is, they are easily humored. Lols



-> some assholes stole ah ma purse and now 800++ bucks is gone. got no idea how come she bring so much cash with her.

damn those girls.
curse you all with a million ingrown hairs

-> how could a cute girl like me ever look unfriendly or even like kc says, no feelings?

hahas.

thats so amusing. after all, people who know me well like the clique, too well in fact, finds me a joker and irritating, who cant seem to shut my mouth.

and well, when i thought of how xinyi and friend used to be afraid of me,
its so truely amazing -chuckles-



-> i was looking at my crystal garden. so cool. the water still haven evaporate. and seriously, it look like a lump of green ice.

i bet its peppermint flavour! ahahas :D



-> just a random thought.
i wonder if beatrice wang is really seventeen.

damn. shes behaving like the irritating girl from bukit view who refused to let you have peace.




-> the more we get together the merrier we'll be

it suddenly appears in my mind. hahas. so random.

-> didnt go school today.
sicked again. woke up at two and the damn pain refuse to subside even after i ate panadols. and i think this is the second time this year i have cried because of stomach cramps. but why must it always be in the middle of the night! arse.



-> i so gonna cock up on friday. tomorrow last day to practice and i still cant coodinate my marching and playing together.

damn.

good luck for all of us ( :



-> was talking to moomoo about transferring school again.
she say she's fine with the transfer as long as daddy got no objection and the school accepts me.

but i bet daddy will object. even if he doesnt, if ah ma knows, she will give me a whole day lecture.



-> my bad.

when ade wanted to transfer out of rivervalley last year, i pulled her into bp instead of rs and now i wanna transfer out. when we were choosing cca last year, i ask people to join band with me and now i feel like quitting.

i feel so bloody ass.



-> im quite sure that im a contradictive person.

no one ever tells me that but i suppose they feel so. its the way i say something and something else the next moment about a particular thing. im contradicting myself so often that i couldnt believe it myself.



-> i was damn happy for BrianWangQiYang yesterday. HE PASSED HIS DRIVING TEST AND HE GOT A LICENSE NOW! and its not finally! his first time and he passed! seeing most of his friend failing try after tries, rupert grint driving in the movie without license after his sixth try, and the fact that he's such a wonderful brother and will be graduating from sp next month who have a great gf and is one of the few near extinction kind of decent guy left on earth, im so happy.

and i believe going through ns will make him more man : D
HAHAHAS



-> REJOICE : D

-> nice song, great voices





愛的主旋律－卓文萱、小鬼 (黃鴻升)

(鬼)是你在那個雨季 闖進我生命
　 帶著一點任性和迷路的表情

(萱)是你在那個雨季 趕走了孤寂
　 溫暖的手融化 我僅有的堅定

(鬼)天上億萬顆星星 我卻只看見妳
　 要說這是幸運 還是不可思議

(萱)身邊有太多風景 我卻停在這裡
　 說我傻的可以 還不是因為你

(鬼)是妳的聲音 (萱)帶給我勇氣
(鬼)戀愛的頻率 (萱)直達我心底

(鬼)如果妳願意 (萱)是的我願意
(合)來做我幸福的主旋律

(鬼)從前都是謎 (萱)現在我相信
(鬼)天空會放晴 (萱)愛會更甜蜜

(鬼)如果妳願意 (萱)是的我願意
(合)愛的主旋律 永遠唱下去

啦啦啦........

-> i feel so sick today.
xiaoling say i look very pale during dnt. lols



-> was very paiseh the other day. cause i was going on and on about chicken pie to jiejie, and how i wanna eat a dozen of them right then, but then i lazy go down polar buy. so jiejie kiddingly ask jianying to go buy chicken pie to stuff my mouth. and ah yi they all heard us, then all of them keep offering to treat me la!

so paiseh lor.

i keep refusing and told them i will buy it myself later on. but in the end, ah yi went down to buy for me. LOLS.

and now im not only sicked of the polar's cakes, but also the chicken pie. ahahas!



-> he's so amusing.
HAHAHAS

me and xian still purposely make him so paiseh. HO~



-> i cut my fringe, you say it isnt obvious. i pin up my side fringe, you say its still unacceptable.

arse

cut away all my fringe then you happy is it? always use ljs threaten me. i very scared of him the ok. so many people hair also like that. stupid la!



-> i so hate the school. i so hate the people in this school. i so hate 204.

i want transfer to rs la! at least when i told mel huting and lingmei about it they kept asking me transfer quickly. and when i told them i still have to make new friends, they reply in unison "dont worry, theres us there"

arent they sweet?



-> lame convo with some people.
xl: i wanna cut my hair (as in the model in her dp)
xl: so shuai!
xl: but im scared.
qw: dont worry, technology enables extention.

ade: kenny says pretty girls arent nice and ugly girls are nice.
qw: so sad. but it cant apply for the guys thoery.
qw: handsome guys arent nice and ugly guys arent nice too.

k: you two better keep your mouths shut hor!
qw: can you phrase it more politely?
k: you two close your mouths hor! -pressing his lips together-

qw: -drinking the buffet orange juice- JIE! got taste leh!
jie: what taste?
qw: orange!
jie: DUH!!!
qw: normally its either too sour or too diluted ma.

qw: kor, after your driving exam on tuesday you must sms me if you pass or not hor!
kor: why leh?
qw: cause if you pass i can shout it out loud and tell my friends.
kor: then if i never pass leh?
qw: tell them 失败乃成功之母 : D

papa: he should be noiser.
qw: why? isnt he better than the damn noisy hongyong?
papa: he noisier then the teacher will notice him. notice him than he will improve more. unlike those diam diam de, the teachers wont know how much they are progressing. furthermore, he noisy the teacher will also call me and tell me and i could try to ask the teacher about him in school ma.
qw: what de?



-> xian

i dont know leh. maybe you stitched it back le it will reform itself? hahas

experiment on yourself la! LOLS



-> finally got two bodies agree with me on that. and one of them got even stronger opinion on it. but seriously, its so unfair. i dont fancy the way things worked in this school. the mindset of people and the way they insist on things to be done. its really irritating sometimes, so much so that it gets onto my nerves, making me feel so murderous. ha! a bit exaggerating la. hahas



-> when you feel like slapping someone, and that you are controlling the urge to do it, its best that the person not talk anymore and stay far away from you.

hahas. its a random sentence. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELODY MAK WAN XIA!

WISH YOU FOREVER SUI SUI PRETTY PRETTY. MASON TREAT YOU SWEET SWEET CARING CARING. AUNTY BUY BIRDNEST AND SHARKFIN AND ABALONE FOR YOU. UNCLE TEACH YOU HOW TO COOK FISH HEAD CURRY. AH ROY LET YOU BITE HIS BREAD HEAD. RYAN BRING HOME YOUR CHIO SISTER-IN-LAW. YOUR AH MA STAY CUTE. EVERY YEAR ANGBAO MONEY GOT FOUR DIGITS. STRIKE TOTO AND 4D. BIGGER BOOBS. NICE HIPS. GREAT FIGURE. GO TRIPLE SCIENCE NEXT YEAR. BE YOUR NPCC SERGEANT IN THE TIME TO COME.

AND LASTLY,
YOUR FRIEND QIWEI TO GET A BOYFRIEND TO BRING HER GO CLARKE QUAY :D


HAPPY BIRTHDAY(:

-> i shall dedicate an entry to this part in the next post(:



-> went bowling.
so funny. huiting threw the ball like the boyboy beside us and she strike!

so ass!
hahas

sixty-two is considered quite good to me le. LOLS

it feels pathetic tho. the boyboy ninety-five.
NOT FAIR NOT FAIR!
he got the bumper help! ahahas



-> mel so sexy today
whee-e-whee!

her blouse too loose then keep revealing her bra.
hahas

se bei bei all looking!
hohoho~



-> then we like so cartoon.
cause initially we wanted go town. but then mel top up card le left five bucks, so lingmei say go bowling.

still ok, but after that she brought us to some housefly coffeeshop eat laksa! hahas!
then we all wear till so sui. funny lor. in the end is we accompany her go eat. Lols



-> came my house play mahjong (DUHS)

blah-and-blah



-> took some pics.
upload them when im free ( :



-> HUITING!
I LIKE YOU TOO :D

JASPER! ITS A FAIR COMPETITION!

wahahahahaas xD
ha! huiting gonna murder me.

-> failed my incline pull up again.
this is no surprise, yet so sad.

sobbing + sobbing



-> jasmin so HIGH! jiayi so HIGH!

hohohos : D



-> i love TOHTINGHUI.
no wonder people keep mistaking us as twins.

ahahas



-> i say
what a brief entry! ha!

www.missbeatricebean.blogspot.com copyright
i think i get what the girl means.

----------------------

mercy killing.


or, maybe the patient is at the final stage and drugs and treatment no longer prove to be effective, so he stops taking them.


i used to think it is acceptable. i used to think that if the patient is unconscious and is feeling extremely terrible, it is okay and better that the doctor performs the act on him. i used to believe in the 'better short suffering than long suffering'. i used to not understand why family mambers make a big fuss when the doctor suggests mercy killing to them. i used to think they are being mean and cruel to the patient. i used to think it's better to live shorter than live longer but more miserable.


but today, i realise it's not easy.


what if the patient is still struggling to live? what if he still wants to live? is mercy killing still an option? is giving up on treatment an option?


no.


maybe the family members are being selfish. but there is still so many things left unseen and unexplored.their tiffanys and america, haagan dazs and intercontinental hotel restuarant, their child/grandchild 's university graduation and wedding ceremony. so many more.


giving up is not a option. not when the patient still wants to live.

-> the acjc concert.
one word

SUPERB.



-> the most emo april fool joke i had for my fourteen years.
(you see, normally it was either scary or hilarious)

jessie: you know xiaoling house nunmber? she knocked down by a car and her leg bleeding like siao.
me: HUH?!
jessie: we call ambulance le.
me: is she alright?
jessie: you think leh? (rather convincingly to me at that point of time cause i thought i heard sobbing)
me: ask the ambulance send her to sgh. my yeye pang bian got bed. (DUH)
jessie sans tinghui xiaoling and xxx/xxx: APRIL FOOL!

BLARDY APRIL FOOL

i feel so stupid. it sound so fake to me now.
told you im an emo-ass



-> freaking tired.
yesterday reached home eleven thirty, was twelve wheni finish bathing and one until my hairs dry.

alica is clever to nap during the concert when the acs people were playing.
you know, their piece was long and boring.



-> so broke.
so broke. so broke. so broke.


but i want new phone. new phone. new phone.



-> my converstaion with xxx

ehh you know tomorrow is xiaoling's birthday ma?
yup i know. i dono what to give...hmmm maybe my heart?
hahas. good idea good idea. wrap it up and give it to her.
wait. let me make my last wish...gimme a sec while i dig it out ya
den dig properly. dont leave holes hor.


so funny. sorry xxx for blogging our convo out. hahas : D



-> funny joke of the day:
huixian was trying to smell the tommy girl perfume without opening the cap.

me: is it nice?
huixian: ah! i can only smell kfc!

DUH!
so lame right!


she's so comical.
recalling two recent events.

(at the interchange, then a group of people moved into the line)
eh, i think the bus come already. people are moving.

(at my voideck doing pirouette. hahas)
where's the lift???


is it the weather?
everybody getting a bit of mental sot-ness.